The author's 30 years of state criminal abuse began in the mid-1980s when army doctors and senior RTR officers failed in their duty of care (given to EVERY soldier) after his wife was kidnapped and raped and forced into prostitution by other soldiers of the Royal Tank Regiment. His son was also left to die in an army hospital but it was the author who was subjected to a kangaroo Court Martial for being a coward. When he left the forces in 1989, things got much worse and he was robbed of his business and other opportunities. From the early 1990s until 2012, he served as an undocumented SAS officer from Bosnia to Benghazi without pay, pension nor recognition. All the while wondering who would kill him first; the bad guys or the so-called good guys?